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it's hard to slow down sometimes. But you’ve stopped me so many times in my tracks. I told you that I was sorry I couldn’t spend as much time as I wished due to work and you held my face and told me that it’s ok and you love me. I forget that even at 4 yearsnold you can have the ability to do that. So keep surprising me baby. Mummy loves you till the end.

48th

I know I’m almost a month late. It’s hard to post when you’re growing too fast. I wished you can stay my little girl forever but I know I can’t do that. Happy birthday inka. Mummy loves you too much.

47

You’re my sunshine Kakak. Yes you are. In a world where it feels so gloomy you’ve shown me compassion and love. You’re turning 4 next month sayang. I cannot believe it too. Lead me to my greater good baby. I know you’re meant for bigger things in life. I love you so much.

46

You’re growing into a fine person Kakak. Make sure you follow your heart. I know you’re strong. I will always be there inside of you when times get rough. I love you sayang.

45

Love comes in a lot of forms. Maybe now, you would understand that it can come in the form of scoldings and beatings. We love you with all our hearts. You mean the world to me. You will always be my baby. Believe that ok. I love you inka. Forever always I do.

44

I love you my child I really do. You’re the best thing that happened to me. Your antics although frustrating at times are the most lovable too. Never stop dreaming to be who you want to be cos I will be there for you.

43

The pictures from the last post disappeared. Don’t worry I’ll add it again. Remember sayang that mummy and baba love you very much. I can see that you love school and I hope you continue this journey. You keep surprising us with your actions and new words and imagination. You’re growing so much in this past month that I can’t keep up. But I look forward to have you in the weekends cos that’s the time I can really have you with me. I love you sayang. Very very very much.